i'm going to start keeping a blog again.

and seeing as how my xanga is six feet under; i choose you mindsaaaay!

i have so many things to say, and nobody to listen to me.

but chances are 89% of what i want to say won't be said here anyway.

and 99.9% of it won't be listened to.

i liked reading through this thing; and its all 'wah wah wah i want a girlfriend'

girls are for the birds.

my biggest concern now, is not falling into complacency.

growing up is my biggest fear.

its practically my only fear.

i've done some not so good things because i'm scared of losing touch with what, in my opinion, makes me, me.

every day i feel like i have to fight to keep the people i grew up with remembering what life is all about: summertime, skateboards, shitty music, video games, getting wasted, and making fun of everyone.

but i'm losing that fight to 'real' jobs, 'real' school, 'real' relationships, and an 800 mile distance.

if i ever grow up, punch me in the face.

i'm currently bored out of my fuckin mind, so i might as well write something down..

well this break started out great,, progressivly got better,, dipped down a bit,, came back up,, then came down like a plane crash

i dont ussually have bad days, but by god this is one of them

i dont really have anyone to tell shit to anymore, so i'll dump it here

my new years resolution is to find a girl,, not just some ho that is lyKe 0mG toTalLy kyUte!!1,,but someone to make the last couple of months here fun and special.. a pretty, intelligent, funny girl that can hang out with me and have a good time.. y'know, that girl that williamson, west virginia lacks heh..  im not looking for a wife, im not looking for a one night stand,,  just one of those photographs with the boy and girl smiling that the kid takes off to college things

i would have loved it more than anything to have spent this break with that chick, but oh well,, cant win em all..

heh its funny how i only write in this when things are bad,, hopefully i wont have to write in it anymore in a while

and if you read this whole thing then you deserve something,, ill send you like a dollar

..of chasing after these stupid little girls,,

fuck it man, if they like me they can come to me, not vice versa